I feel like shit. Mostly.
You see how I modify my statement? Make it not-absolute? For to be absolute is to be incorrect. For I perceive absolutes to so rarely exist. Let me try again.
I feel like shit.
Ahhh, there, no modification. I trust my audience to filter my statement and come to the conclusion that shit is not the entirety of what I feel. I also trust them to understand the metaphor, or whatever it is, and realize I don't feel like shit in actuality. I simply mean that I feel sad, angry, frustrated, fearful, hateful, disgusted, and/or confused in some mixture. A recipe that might list those things as the ingredients and then tell one to mix in a human body for a certain amount of time at a certain heat and bad comes out. It might then briefly explain that bad is a synonym for shit.
I'm not going to delve into the causes for this finely baked good, because this is not a place I want to do it.
Is it not interesting how dreams lose their flavor? Passions fall by the wayside.
It is sometimes reassuring to realize that while I am a small, fucked-up, crippled ass of a man, I am also God.
Now tell me, is that not a little bit of feel better medicine?
Shanti om, hari om, shanti om.
I really need to learn some prayers in a language I speak.
January 23, 2007
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2 comments:
Yup. Know that feeling. I don't know if the "I suck but I'm also god" idea makes me feel any better either.
My sense is that the feeling is universal--an intimate part of our makeup.
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